People say that art is a discipline, you should understand to disengage from the association of discipline with punishment. Words are linear which means that certain words have certain associations. For example the discipline of morality, you don’t have to punish your self to be moral. Morality is easy, it is easy to know right from wrong and if you do wrong you are open enough to realize and regret it and to make it right, or if you can to simply understand that your indestructible nature or the common basis of your mind is something that cant forget but at the same time cant be contained. Art is a discipline, like martial art, or spiritual practice. Better NOW to correct the association with punishment, because punishment means you are punished and that you don’t do it again. Discipline means that you enjoy something weather you are doing it or not.
It means you love your mother. Because since the beginning you were made by love, or at least pleasure, she was your object of complete satisfaction, just taking milk from her breast, you try to remember that, that’s pure love, same as the love of god. The moment you separate from this knowledge which means you start to hate your mother or you pray to god like he is an entity outside of you, or you base your self on hope and fear. When you are happy you should notice, you should notice when you are happy. At that moment you are in complete understanding of the fact that you will die and of the fact that your unrestrained smile is impermanent.